9 weeks

It's that time of year again. CHRISTMAS!!! In fact, there are only 3 days left until the jolly man, goes on his journey to visit all of the little boys and girls!

This past week has been pretty good as far as not feeling sick constantly. It kind of came and went throughout the day, which is a HUGE step from the prior weeks of 'all day' sickness! Lifesavers peppermints (only out at Christmas) have saved my life. That and I stayed at my parents house for almost a week, and ate constantly, but boy was it worth it!!! I found out the hard way that I will not be able to eat my fathers famous turkey chili during this pregnancy. SO SAD!!!

Umm, let's see...I am getting fat, haha!! Really I am, lets just say I have already gained 20 lbs. totally not cool, but I can't say that I am surprised because with my boys I gained nearly 80 lbs both times! It's okay though, because I have nobody to impress, and I sure as hell won't be having sex with anybody, so I'm good :)!!! With that being said, lol, I was asked out on a date....Yea, I didn't know what to say either, I was like umm, I'm pregnant. And his response was "So, what does pregnant have to do with anything", I thought awww, that is SO sweet, but no thanks! I have far too much going on to even THINK about going there.

So, anyways, I have been craving fruit like crazy. Not just any fruit though, peaches....omg, so tasty!!! I have drank so much Ginger Ale in the last 4 weeks that I can no longer stand it. I have noticed that pretty much everything I eat, gives me indigestion....and not just regular "i gotta poop" indigestion, the kind that makes me feel like I can't move! So I discovered this week, as I was having an amazing craving for Nachos(yummo), Tostitos, Shredded Cheese(melted of course), and sour cream.....turned out to be the ONE thing I can eat without feeling ill!!! VICTORY is mine, hah!! Geez, all this talk about food is making me hungry!

LBO(little baby owens)

LBO is growing fast these days. I was in the ER Saturday night with severe abdominal pain, I thought I was having a miscarriage. Not the case, I saw LBO on the ultrasound :) And the little cupcake was getting down dancing, haha. It was so cute! The Doctor told me it was probably because of my weight gain (I say kiss my fat...you know) and due to the fact that I had a C-section with Dylan. The growth of my uterus is most likely, putting pressure on the scar tissue from my C-section, which unfortunately is something I will have to kind of "deal with" through out the pregnancy. Today LBO is the size of a large grape this week. Why they use fruits and veggies to show size I have no clue but either way, I have a large grape!

I thought i had decided on names, but after doing some thinking....I decided that I am going to use family names, well for the middle name at least. I have done this with my Sons, and plan on keeping it that way with LBO.
Here is what i have so far:

Tristan Jacob
Lindsay Beth
Adrian Elizabeth
Jillian Anne
Ian Richard

Okay, on to the next subject, that unfortunately burns in my brain 24-7. And that I always answer people with, "I don't want to talk about it"! I guess in a way, it is just easier for me, to not discuss, maybe its because I in some weird waym hope that if I don't talk about it, everything will be okay.....but in reality, it isnt okay. I will eventually have to talk about it with someone. I feel like I should now, it just hurts to even bring up. And I turn into a sobbing mess, like I am now!









I have ALOT going on still, and in the beginning wasn't going to blast my news out there for everybody to gossip about, however, I need to be supported right now and need people in my life who can help me get through all of this madness. It is a long complicated situation, and to begin talking about it would take me hours. And I can't sit that long, I mean geesh I have to pee, and eat ya know :)! Let me just say that, things don't always turn out the way we think they were going to. I am going to be essentially raising this little bundle of joy on my own. That is beyond scary. I don't want to sit here and tell my whole situation at the moment, I am sure that there will come a point where I can no longer hold it in. That will be the moment that I start typing like I am writing a novel, and you will all say "holy shit", because in reality that is all that you will be able to think of, because, you will be left speechless.