*16 weeks*

Where shall I begin....

LBO now has a name.

~*~Gavin Parker~*~

I have begun the madness, that is baby shopping (and nesting all at once). Wowzers!

I wasn't going to go with a 'theme', however, while on a shopping spree at JC Penney's
I came across a bedding set that was orignially 150.00, I got it for 29.97 That was a deal I coudn't pass up! TRUCKS!

I am going today and buying the swing, and to put the pack-n-play as well as, the stroller/car seat on lay-away at Babies R Us.

I have come across a huge amount of clearance items from this winter, so I am doing the smart thing, and purchasing them now, in sizes I am hoping he will be wearing at the time! Hey, anything to save a dollar. Especially when I have a limited amount of money to spend!

Gavin is doing well, growing like a little weed. According to BabyCenter.com he will be the size of an Avocado this week! (which is hilarious,since I was attempting to make homemade guacamole last night, yum!)

I will going to the Doctor next week for my 17 week check-up. So I will definitely fill everyone in.

I am so ready for this cold weather to GO AWAY!! I am a warm weather, kinda gal. I need some warm sunshine on my face!

Hope everyone is doing well.

14 weeks

It's a BOY!!!

Yes ya'll heard it right....

I am having another BOY :) Crazy, I know!!!

There hasn't been too much going on lately. I haven't been able to sleep very well, so by the time I pass out it is usually around 3am. Which causes me to sleep until 1100 in the morning, AWFUL!

I finally got an appointment with my new Doctor. (The doc I had been seeing for 10 years isn't delivering babies anymore) So she was pretty nice, except that she told me to ::gasp:: stop eating fruit, and when I asked if I could drink Crystal Light....he response was "why would you want to put that in your body". Not only was I shocked, but saddened lol. I mean it's not like I am drinking a bottle of grey goose, and eating a brick of cheese with a bag of grapes :). She asked me to come back for an ultrasound asap, just to make sure there was nothing wrong with the baby. So I go in yesterday for an ultrasound, NOT expecting the lady to say "do you want to know the sex" (I'm thinking its too early for that, right? WRONG) So she moves it around a little bit and WHAM, low and behold there is MR. PICKLE!!! haha, hey that is what she called him :)

I'd love to finish, but I must go referee real quick....The boys are fighting...yet again :)

11 weeks

So I don't really have too much to say this week, but I know ya'll want an update so......

The nausea has finally passed. Which means I am eating like I have been deprived of food for weeks :)

Still waiting to go to the Doctor, I have yet to receive my insurance cards, so I have to wait until the arrive in the mail before anybody will see me. Which is pretty frustrating, because I have ALOT to talk to her about!

I am still not sure whether I think I am having a boy or girl. I know what I would love to have, however, I don't want to jinx myself.

Trying to get passed the anger and hurt I have towards somebody, is alot harder than I ever thought it would be.I try to think of other things, but it is not as easy as he would like it to be. I think that sometimes, people lie to themselves SO much, that they actually start to believe their lies. It is hard when someone tells you to pretty much just get over what they have done to you. And to "not think about it, because it will destroy you". I have realized, and finally decided to let him go. It hurts, because I never thought I would be in this situation, but at the same time, I have to do it. The hardest thing is knowing that every little word I was told, turned out to be a lie, everything from loving me, to being with me, everything....was a lie! It makes me sick when I see and hear certain things, however, I won't let someone who did this to me have the satisfaction of thinking I am miserable or lost without them. Someone is going to come along, and make me realize why there was never a chance of being happy with jto. And I hate to say this, but if somebody comes along, and wants to be in my life, as well as my babies life.....I am not going I am not going to stop them. That may be a terrible thing to say, but when you go through, what I have recently you would feel the same way!

Okay, enough about that. I am getting large. Which I seem to unaccepting of. I gained ALOT of weight with the boys, and lost it all afterwards. But still I am having a hard time with how much I am gaining. I am terrified that I wont be able to lose it after the baby is born. Thats scary!

Um, I am trying to go to school for Nursing. I want to start while I am pregnant, that way maybe I will have a chance of getting a good job after the baby is born.

Well everyone, I think that about covers everything for this week. I am sure as soon as I am done that I will think of more to say.

Ohhhh, I have chosen the baby names!

Zoe Anne

Brendan (cant find a middle name)

Not Crazy After all....

thank GOD, I am not crazy after all!!! I kept feeling these weird movements in my belly, and was thinking I should do some research to see if it was gas, or it was LBO moving around. And YAY, it is the baby. They say that with a 3rd pregnancy your uterus is more flexible which tends to make you show alot sooner (thank god, cause I thought i was just getting fat) and that you can feel movement as early as 9 weeks! Sorry though my friends, you will have to wait a lil longer before I can let you feel me!

Week 10.....211 days to go!

Whew, what a week it has been.

This past week has been....crazy!
All the crazy Christmas madness is finally over!!! Thank God! :)
Thanks to my wonderful parents my children had an amazing Christmas, they definitely over did themselves again this year :)
My dad cooked an AMAZING filet on Christmas, OMG it was sooo tasty. I want one now just thinking about it!
My poor Mom has come down with a cold from all the late night shopping trips :( sorry mama!

Let's see here,I have been the sickest yet in the last few days. Hopefully it will end soon, because this eating all day to not feel sick isnt helping. I have actually lost a few pounds.

I am beyond ready to go to the doctor, but am still waiting on my insurance. I will feel much better once i can get to the doc. Then maybe i wont think I am having a miscarriage everytime I feel a weird sensation in my belly! (cant help it, I am just paranoid like that)

I will be finding out the sex of the baby around my birthday in March
I really want to have the 3-D ultrasound done! p.s. that would be an AWESOME EARLY birthday present, you know like a 4 week early present :) ::winkwink::

Don't really have much to say tonight, I am ready to move out of this stinky apartment in the ghetto, i know that much. What in the WORLD was I thinking?!?

OH YEAH, so I was soooo insistent on finding skinny maternity jeans (because I REFUSED to wear them when I wasnt preggo) to wear with my boots i got last year, well FINALLY i found some. My mama bought me 2 pairs of them for Christmas. I get home yesterday, and WTH I can't find the effin' boots anywhere.....This is just redunkulous, I want my boots. Im trying to be a cute preggo. So if anyone sees my boots PLEASE tell me. Oh and whats up with all the preggo shirts that look like tents? I want CUTE shirts that show off my belly!!!! Write that down!

2 more names to add the list: (which btw, were my Dad's choosing)

Brendan Wesley
Zoe Anne

Okay ya'll, I am done for the night, need to go eat, yet again! And try and sleep :)
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9 weeks

It's that time of year again. CHRISTMAS!!! In fact, there are only 3 days left until the jolly man, goes on his journey to visit all of the little boys and girls!

This past week has been pretty good as far as not feeling sick constantly. It kind of came and went throughout the day, which is a HUGE step from the prior weeks of 'all day' sickness! Lifesavers peppermints (only out at Christmas) have saved my life. That and I stayed at my parents house for almost a week, and ate constantly, but boy was it worth it!!! I found out the hard way that I will not be able to eat my fathers famous turkey chili during this pregnancy. SO SAD!!!

Umm, let's see...I am getting fat, haha!! Really I am, lets just say I have already gained 20 lbs. totally not cool, but I can't say that I am surprised because with my boys I gained nearly 80 lbs both times! It's okay though, because I have nobody to impress, and I sure as hell won't be having sex with anybody, so I'm good :)!!! With that being said, lol, I was asked out on a date....Yea, I didn't know what to say either, I was like umm, I'm pregnant. And his response was "So, what does pregnant have to do with anything", I thought awww, that is SO sweet, but no thanks! I have far too much going on to even THINK about going there.

So, anyways, I have been craving fruit like crazy. Not just any fruit though, peaches....omg, so tasty!!! I have drank so much Ginger Ale in the last 4 weeks that I can no longer stand it. I have noticed that pretty much everything I eat, gives me indigestion....and not just regular "i gotta poop" indigestion, the kind that makes me feel like I can't move! So I discovered this week, as I was having an amazing craving for Nachos(yummo), Tostitos, Shredded Cheese(melted of course), and sour cream.....turned out to be the ONE thing I can eat without feeling ill!!! VICTORY is mine, hah!! Geez, all this talk about food is making me hungry!

LBO(little baby owens)

LBO is growing fast these days. I was in the ER Saturday night with severe abdominal pain, I thought I was having a miscarriage. Not the case, I saw LBO on the ultrasound :) And the little cupcake was getting down dancing, haha. It was so cute! The Doctor told me it was probably because of my weight gain (I say kiss my fat...you know) and due to the fact that I had a C-section with Dylan. The growth of my uterus is most likely, putting pressure on the scar tissue from my C-section, which unfortunately is something I will have to kind of "deal with" through out the pregnancy. Today LBO is the size of a large grape this week. Why they use fruits and veggies to show size I have no clue but either way, I have a large grape!

I thought i had decided on names, but after doing some thinking....I decided that I am going to use family names, well for the middle name at least. I have done this with my Sons, and plan on keeping it that way with LBO.
Here is what i have so far:

Tristan Jacob
Lindsay Beth
Adrian Elizabeth
Jillian Anne
Ian Richard

Okay, on to the next subject, that unfortunately burns in my brain 24-7. And that I always answer people with, "I don't want to talk about it"! I guess in a way, it is just easier for me, to not discuss, maybe its because I in some weird waym hope that if I don't talk about it, everything will be okay.....but in reality, it isnt okay. I will eventually have to talk about it with someone. I feel like I should now, it just hurts to even bring up. And I turn into a sobbing mess, like I am now!









I have ALOT going on still, and in the beginning wasn't going to blast my news out there for everybody to gossip about, however, I need to be supported right now and need people in my life who can help me get through all of this madness. It is a long complicated situation, and to begin talking about it would take me hours. And I can't sit that long, I mean geesh I have to pee, and eat ya know :)! Let me just say that, things don't always turn out the way we think they were going to. I am going to be essentially raising this little bundle of joy on my own. That is beyond scary. I don't want to sit here and tell my whole situation at the moment, I am sure that there will come a point where I can no longer hold it in. That will be the moment that I start typing like I am writing a novel, and you will all say "holy shit", because in reality that is all that you will be able to think of, because, you will be left speechless.

*Baby Names*

Although, I had a couple of names picked out. I would like to know what YOU think. Any suggestions are greatly welcomed :)

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